Several of you have emailed asking for an update and I promised I would do it anyway, so here it is. I hope you’ll understand this in some respects has to be cryptic and vague. (Radio and church people like to keep some things quiet.)
The past two weeks have been filled with three things: meetings with radio professionals, meetings with church ministry professionals, and coffees, breakfasts, and lunches with friends. (The friends almost always buy because they feel sorry for me. I’ll take pity if it means not paying at a restaurant.) I almost forgot to mention, for the first time in 13 years I haven’t had to set an alarm clock at all, much less for a time when it’s still dark outside. I’ve been able to start most days with a long walk around my neighborhood, then breakfast with my wife and 21 month old daughter (my 3 month old is there too, but he doesn’t eat much at the table), and then a significant time of prayer. It’s pretty sweet.
I head to Michigan for the next week with the wife and kids to see some family, buy freshly picked fruit, do some reading, and help my daughter learn to ride a tricycle without falling off of it. All should be pleasant and easy except for that tricycle thing. When I get back its two more weeks of significant radio and church meetings (and hopefully a few more free meals). Anna and I are trusting that these will more clearly show us where God is leading.
I can already tell one of the lessons of this phase of my life is going to be truly understanding the idea of faith. It seems embarrassing to say since so many others have been experiencing this for years in this economy, but in looking ahead to an uncertain future I am being challenged on whether I truly have faith in God as my provider or whether that was just something easy to say when things were going well. The Bible tells us in the book of Hebrews that “faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” It’s easy to say you have faith if you think life is secure and you’re not going to have to worry about things financially. But you really see if you have faith when that earthly security is tenuous or disappears altogether. It’s kind of funny because it’s almost like God says, “Hey, silly! The only reason you had security while you had the job is because I gave the job to you. Why are you questioning your security now?” Yep, it’s humbling to say the least.